Like many, I grew up Christian. I was born Christian. For some, that may lack authenticity if it was not wholly my choice to grasp onto Jesus’ robe. However, there’s stage one of being introduced to the Lord—planting a seed—then there’s Him inviting me to step into deep waters as I explore His vastness.
I used to see Jesus as an idolized divine figure. He was like an actor saying His lines. Dying for our sins was His purpose and He knew that from when He was young. It’s harder to connect with Jesus with the way the Bible is written. He felt less . . . real. Just an imposing, perfect being doing what He had to do like an advanced robot.
Jump to the start of middle school where I got my phone and God used social media to open a pathway. I’d stumble upon videos that give insight on the Word and I was piqued. One of them that stuck to me, that bloomed this desire to read the Bible, was Anna Miriam Brown. Through her musicals and art and writing, I saw humanity in the Son. Anna shares the Gospel through Instagram, offering realizations that opened my eyes to God’s love. Jesus is divine, but we often forget He was brought down to walk among us as a human being. One of the most astoundingly beautiful things I learnt from Anna was that Jesus was terrified. So much so that he was sweating blood. The only instance He pleaded for another way with His Father was when he had to suffer and die for our sins. “Not my will, but Yours be done.” He was scared, but His love for us and the fear that we will not be with God was far greater than His fear, whatever that fear was. He could have chosen not to save me, but He did.
Anna Miriam Brown would be where I’d say my own personal journey with God started. On March 23, 2025, I made an official declaration to devote my life to Him with Mrs. Ma. Mrs. Ma led me to pray to confess my sins and accept Jesus in my heart as my Lord and Savior. Thanks to my parents, my church teachers, and the Bible, I’ve been able to know about Him for all my life. Now I want to know Him, not just about Him.
I have changed throughout the years. God has made me more mature and aware. He has made me more aware so that I could reflect and repent. He made me more aware so that I’d be appreciative. He has gifted me knowledge and understanding of His Word through other people. He encouraged a relationship where I could cast my worries onto Him.
I hope to concern myself with less things and lend my time to the Lord. I want to become a pure and compassionate worker of God, to have the courage to express my faith.